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  • Jul. 4th, 2008 at 12:20 PM
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Morning Star Rising
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Not much work done the last couple of days. Jeff's taken the week off from work and so we've been doing things with the kids. Yesterday we went to Elitch Gardens amusement park and spent the day there. Finally got back to work today, starting off with getting some critiquing done. I also went over the galley of "Night Bird Soaring" for GUD, and for the first time, I've actually felt really good about a story that's been accepted. I'm not sure why, but usually after I've sold a story and read through the galley, one of my reactions is "Good grief this is horrible! What was the editor thinking to buy this?" I'd like to think that I have a lot of confidence in what I write, but obviously it's not as much confidence as I'd like to have. How to get over this, I don't know, but for the first time, I read a galley and came away feeling "that's a story to be proud of." I think it may have something to do with the fact that usually when I'm reading a galley, I find all sorts of things I wished I'd done differently but now it's too late. This story though I went through draft after draft, critique by a couple of my most trusted readers, and even was critiqued by Carina Gonzalez through her Zen Pen critique service. This story even got me out of the slush at F&SF. It ended up at a semi-pro magazine, but a snazzy-looking one with editors that showed great devotion to the copy-editing process (this is kind of interesting because I've seen references to bad copy editing in reviews of the first issue, so obviously they took that criticism seriously and made efforts to correct that. Copy editor Julia Bernd even went to so far as to check my Nahuatl and help me correct and streamline what I'd pretty much put together from a jumble of difference sources--I have much better reference books now than I did when I originally wrote this story). I really have nothing but good stuff to say so far about my experience with GUD and encourage everyone to submit their work there. The icing on the cake would be if the story comes with an illustration (I don't know if it does. I probably won't find out until my contributor's copy comes). Anyway, this is the first time that I've read the galley and thought, "I really love this story." It might get thoroughly torn apart in reviews, but I don't think that would change my opinion of it; for me it's my favorite of my published works.

Comments

[info]kara_gnome wrote:
Jul. 4th, 2008 08:33 pm (UTC)
No, I totally get this. I don't know if it's confidence or just how we view our own work, but it's so hard to see it the way others do. Or the way they say they do. Sometimes, I'd like to sit down and have a real heart to heart that includes--oh, I don't know what, just, it would be so nice to clearly see what others see in our work.

It would sure make editing easier, for one thing *g*

Congratulations about the story, it's great!
[info]tlmorganfield wrote:
Jul. 4th, 2008 09:57 pm (UTC)
It's always interesting to see what others think the core concepts of our stories are; it can be frustrating during the submission process when an editor thinks your story's about something you didn't intend at all and rejects it for said reason. It's far less stressful and grumble-inducing when a reviewer describes your story and you think "well, that's not what I was going for at all," though granted that has yet to follow with a dissing in my own personal experience. I'm a believer that what the writer intended and what the reader sees are both valid interpretations of a text, even though they may in fact be highly divergent of each other (I'd even venture to say that the reader's interpretation is the most valid one because they don't have the benefit of authorial background knowledge and are going off purely what they see in the text itself.). It does make me wonder though how those editors who bought my work saw it in their own heads. I've only had one experience of an editor describing to me what he thought the story was about and it completely nailed what I'd been trying to do and that was the coolest moment for me (unfortunately that didn't result in a sale, for the one who does the actual buying didn't get the point of the story the way he did. Such is life.)

In a way, I'm a bit afraid that because I like this story so much that it will get bad reviews. I of course want people to like it as much as I do. But that's out of my hands now.
[info]kara_gnome wrote:
Jul. 5th, 2008 05:55 pm (UTC)
It's the whole babies thing, though. You're sending your little one off to play with the other kids and you want everyone to like her :) It's funny how much our stories are our babies in an emotional level.

See, I really want mine to have little brothers and sisters *LOL*

I wonder if what the writer sees and the editors sees are both right. I mean, different levels of right, sure, but stories are complex. I think this is what they touch on when they (people) talk about shorts being difficult to write. There are layers to a story, and it's actually part of the enjoyment that the reader (or editor or writer) brings his or her own filters to the mix, too.

Your story is going to do fine! I feel it.

So, are you going to flash this weekend? You should, really--loads of us are, getting ready for a huge bunch on the first. C'mon, it'd be great!
[info]j_cheney wrote:
Jul. 4th, 2008 09:22 pm (UTC)
I'll keep my fingers crossed for good reviews!. ;o)
[info]tlmorganfield wrote:
Jul. 4th, 2008 09:58 pm (UTC)
Thanks! I'm a bit nervous about it, though it's still a month or so before it'll actually be out.
[info]j_cheney wrote:
Jul. 4th, 2008 11:04 pm (UTC)
Yes, I've got 2 things out in Sept, and I'm already worrying...
[info]aliettedb wrote:
Jul. 5th, 2008 11:16 am (UTC)
Oh yes. I'm often surprised by what others see in my work (mostly ok with it, except in some extreme cases that have made me go "uh?"), but I guess we have all this personal history when we're writing it that just doesn't make it into the final draft.
[info]musingaloud wrote:
Jul. 5th, 2008 09:19 pm (UTC)
I so understand the hating what you've written. The same thing has happened to me. I find myself apologizing for the story, and I don't like that. So congrats on being happy on this one. I think it's a matter of showing your growth as a writer, eh?
[info]neile wrote:
Jul. 6th, 2008 08:39 pm (UTC)

Belated congratulations, especially at being able to feel pleased at what you've accomplished. Hooray!